Emotions

Emotions!!!

Curse you emotions!!!
Man what a week! I realy need a vacation so bad. Iv been so stressed out and kinda wondering what to do with life. Today has been the most emotional day of all!  Today started off with waking up at 4am  from a horrible dream and not being able to fall back asleep. Im naturaly a very emotional person so the toughts of my dream keept with me for the remander of the morning at work. Next i got a phone call at work from this realy rude guy who I was trying to help and he kept making me feel horrible. My boss then took over my phone call and then after told me to never let anyone treat me like that again. I hate being an emotional person this kinda stuff shouldnt really matter but for some reason its like magnified by ten times. Im trying really hard to get a tough coat and i hate when people take my kindness for granted and start pushing me around, im not so much a push over anymore. I do still need to work on what makes me happy instead of always trying to make everyone else happy and putting my feeling last.
Iv tryed to hold my head up high and tell myself I can get threw this iv been threw far worse things than what im going threw now, and that kinda helps but only for so long. I hate how my days are so short get up at 5:30 and off work at 4, then I try to work out everyday right after work for an hour, then home to make dinner, take a shower, and get ready for the next day. Im needing something exciting in life where i can feel like im contributing to something  but what im not sure yet?
I need to expand my social network and meet new fun people!!! I need something to lift me up and get me in a good mood. Good thing tomorrow is Friday!!!

Valentines Day-

So Valentines day is just a few days away.... I kinda find this holiday a little annoying, don't get me wrong it is a fun holiday but....  This is the time of the year where people are all sad if they don't have anyone, and those who do brag about it ALOT!
I've been trying to help some friends hook up and realize how much I do not miss the dating scene! there are too many games and not enough communication.  All I have to say to my single friends is to enjoy it! it might seem like you will be single forever and ya its great to have someone but it is lots of work to also be with someone. when your single you have more freedom to do stuff and to do what makes you happy so you singles out there enjoy your time to your self because once you have found that person, your whole world will change!.

For those of you who do have someone...
I do find it a little annoying when people say that they have the best spouse in the whole world and everyone should be jealous. for example " I have the best husband in the whole world tough luck lady's he is taken and you cant have him i feel sorry for you"  come on!!!! I'm sure every spouse is wonderful to there spouse, but why would I want him? I have my own and I  am  not jealous of yours in any way. not everyone in the world is meant to be with everyone. I'm glad you found your perfect someone but that might not be the perfect someone for someone else. sorry i might just be dragging this out but i just find it really annoying!  ha ha!

Single-Dating-Married= Love!

It doesn't matter where  you are in life. if your single, dating, or married you should show the people you love how much they mean to you. Valentines day is a day for us to share a little more of how much we love someone. don't forget the rest of the year to show the people you care about that you love them! I know being married doesn't really feel any different than the last 4 1/2 years  iv been with Joel. but it is always important to show that love. you can call someone on the phone, wright little notes, or even get a little treat for someone just remember to keep in contact with the people in your lives.
I don't want to sound mushy or anything ha ha but it is going to be Valentines Day soon and I just wanted to say I'm very grateful to be married to Joel he is my whole world and even tho being married can be tough. i wouldn't change it for the world.
So HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE DON'T FORGET TO SHOW YOUR LOVE TO THOSE YOU CARE ABOUT!!!!!

So today has been a good day!!! I've been feeling a little down lately,  and have just been going with the flow of things (which can be good sometimes) but I'm glad I'm back on track with things and fighting for the things I believe in its been a while since i truly have.
Today I Finally turned in all the necessary paper work to get back into school so i can move forward and get my bachelors. I finally know what I want to get into Dietitian! I find out the begging of next month if I've gotten in! cant wait!!!
Today at work we got our results of productivity and I'm glad to report I'm one of the top 3! its great to be productive at a new job and to also make new friend!
This weekend we had a lumberjack party it was pretty fun. I got the courage to sing in front of everyone (its been a very long time since iv done that) and I was not even nerves. I did mess up a little at the end but hey I just played it off and laughed it off!
I've really missed giving my all to some type of cause and feeling like I'm truly a part of something!
Life is great and looking back how far i have come because I have fought for something i believe and care about. Having people tell you things cant happen and then proving them wrong is what I live for!!!

My little family 2012!!!

Chilling with the pups at home

Hike with the pups